It felt like my heart is empty. I need something to fill it. I filled it with girl friends, friends and hall. But it never felt enough. After I had them, I depend on them. Worst still, I expect things back from them. But most of the time they can't give back and I get frustrated.
Oh Lord! Is this what people preached about having a hole in the heart, where only Jesus can satisfy? But how do I achieve it? Complete faith and believe in God? Jesus is sometimes too abstract to me. Yes I can say I believe, but what I actually put my believe in?
Previously, I focused on result. I focused on blessings. My version of Christianity is the God will bless those who are faithful to him and my walk as a christian is based on meritocracy. People who do not receive that much blessings, I will say that this person is cursed or is walking the wrong path. Little did I know I was always walking in the wrong path, but it was God's grace and mercy that sustained my life on earth in what I am achieving.
How do I get a confirmation from God in answers in life? Many times people say and even the word of God says that, the Bible provides you with answers. So lets get to it!
